I give up...

Meoowwwww!!!

Hello my dear buddies! I am back yet again… Yes I know it was yet another ten days long or more type of break…I had got food poisoning.

I fell sick yet again…Terribly sick…It was Friday morning, last week. I felt so numb due to fever. I had cramps in my tummy…Something was churning inside me, giving me intense pain, my legs couldn’t support me. I was alone. I mustered up all my courage and got myself some breakfast and medicines. Booked a ticket online and somehow managed to drag myself home.

Jeeezzzz.......This time I thought I won’t make it out of the hospital alive….

I don’t know what’s happening, why it’s happening, what it means….but I’m just not right like I used to be.

I don’t understand why things are meant to be like this? I never wanted things to be like this. My roomies ask me every day when I’m back from work, that why am I so frustrated?

I just shrug and say I’m just tired. No one has ever asked me that before, why I was frustrated, because I never was.

I’m not in my happy-as-always mode. I’m not at peace.  I’ve become cranky, anxious, restless, no hunger, no thirst, no nothing. And I’m not keeping well at all….I am falling sick every fortnight.

This is how I define my current situation. No…Its not homesickness either, I’ve learned to cope up with it. I’ve been living out here since almost a year now. And I’m perfectly fine with my roomies.

 But I have changed, for both good and the bad. And I don’t like the latter part of it. I want to undo the negative changes that took place throughout over the span of this last one year.

May be it’s this city….The people….and the biggest reason...My Job Profile.

I’ve been doing what I don’t like since such a long time.  I had made wrong choices, some mistakes…and I’m taking a U- turn to correct them. It would be like a time travel for me. I’m going back to pick things up from where I left them from two years ago.

I know it’s not going to be so easy. But I’ve become strong enough. A little more effort, an extra brain-racking and things would be alright. and like I wanted it to be...

Don’t panic…It’s not like I’m going back to my estranged ex and all that kind of stuff…I’m talking about just my career and you know.Mmm…I’m talking about getting back to my old college student life. I'm planning to pursue MBA!

Yes, I’m quitting my job. The job which I wanted so desperately.I’m giving it up…

Its okay to give up sometimes, isn't it?

How does that sound to you???